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8:23pm in K7B211,Kolej Ungku Omar,UKM. Already been abt 4 months here. When i first know i can in uni i super happy coz with the result of mine i din put much hope in it. Chemical Technology is the course i'm taking. i dono wat tis course actually abt but when i get to understand tat it had connection with the course i am actually interested in. FEEL GRATEFUL n THANKFUL^^tats wat i feel the vy time..

Now, at the moment i really feel tat what am i doin here? uni life is not wat i thought it should be...
wat can i do to improve myself??? to be better? wat UR purpose in me???pls tell me....plspls... wat am i going to do??? such question i ask myself many times dy but i cant get an answer......i think that my life is a waste from child until..... i don wan to be like tat...... i wish to learn many things but.....
Many of my frien was vy worried n stress abt the comin exam but i din felt tat way...maybe abit la..

Friends??? my best frien where r u??? it was like i am disappearing...every one goin their own way dy...new frien, new place....they face lots of challenge in their life, life seem vy difficult....
Wat about me?? Life still seems ok...no big challenge coming....I am waiting for u Challenge...Where U??? my life juz like calm sea...bored...unproductive....how am i goin to do UR work with me like this...

I still feel empty in my soul although i know i have U forever...how??wat this means???
My spiritual mates...when can i meet u??? be my guide???

I know n understand clearly that i should be THANKFUL everyday..make every moment count..but in real life wat am i thinkin???

The Day B4 New Year

Wake up a little bit late gua...Aiyo grandma angry dy coz she was doin the housework alone...hehe^^
As usual ate "tuan yuan fan" n take ang pau...
haha=) need to say good word b4 takin ang pau, i think i'm the worst lo...cant think of anything to say lol...(every year the same)
Gt prob with my frien, bt dono hw lo...really xien meh =.= on CNY
Long story...hard to tell lo...

Seem that nothing to write dy o...haha
Hope that my life will be more interesting n can share here...HOPE SO...

Thank God that we can hav CNY together...
May The Blessing of God Fully Upon U All...
must be closer to You^^

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR MY FRIEN

Continue.........

Go bac to school, teachers ah...long time no see o..still the same..haha
Cleaning my room "tired" bt happy coz the air so fresh n wah....hahaha
My grandpa wore the shirt i bought haha happy=)
My dad wore too bt he o...complain that the short size is too big..sad lo...hehe
next time muz choose nicer n suitable one..don like to see them disappointed.
lj called n we talk much bt i reject his request n he is too good..
he is a good guy bt bt bt i juz cant accept him..i think he surely hurt coz he put so much in..

haiz lazy to talk abt it dy...bye bye la))))wakaka

Reunion =)

Finally back home...
Everyone welcome me with a smile-hah''finally'' My dad took me for dinner. em... NICE
Can feel that they miss me so..
It's great to be home. Talk a lot abt my life in sg.
I were like Santa Claus giving away gifts for my family member.
It is great to see their happy face..
I think my sis will be vy fan coz i nag her...haha
Grandma complaining abt her laziness make me xien n don like, bt she acted the same...
Dad gave her a hp to use, actually i din agree bt wat can i do???
my room vy dusty....hate it....Ahhhhh...
my sis sleep in my room bt din help me clean it...my dad some more say wait i come bac clean on my own...too sayang her...HAIZ
little bro happy tat i bought him toys..
YEAH!!!! i'm home i'm home BT oni for a few days...
really will miss all of u..
Hope that Jesus will blessed my family forever..

complicated!!!

first time writing this..no where to express,complicated feeling=.=
weird n boring today. wan to meet frien n buy things bt dono hw to go??
alone at home PJ.. goin to go bac to home town tmr! after 2months in sg.
hope to meet my family,frien n my church..miss much=>
my LORD...wan to be more close to you bt juz cant be...
pls GIVE me strength!!
really need ur present Jesus
dono hw my future will be...scared,lost n worry..wat uni i'm goin to??haiz!!!!!
my little bro like to play...haiz dono hw his study will be..worry abt him,coz i'm nt wif him
my grandpa drink everyday..hw abt his health??
my great grandma health get worst bt she din knew Jesus...hate Him i think, coz????
my 2months in sg, all my relative treat me vy well...vy sayang me le..i'm most blessed...feel God grace is upon me..really thankful BUT they haven receive salvation...really need a lot of prayer...
my feeling still vy complicated..no word can express...cham lo???
still nt feeling better to write it down on this blog...haha=)
ONLY GOD KNOW ................